Word of the Day: 本格的

I did the things today, I am still preparing for a lot, I think also this is already a given as I have explained it before but, I don't really lie. I will omit things at times. That is my version of "lying"...

I think that is a fair thing to do, really. Not everything needs your input. Whether you know what you're talking about or not.

Anyway, I am pretty happy and feel like a lot of things are going right, but I mean, I still have my work ahead of me and things I need to attend to. I think I will be more free going into April and that is sort of a relief.

I hate to say it, this was kind of my mentality around January, " If I can just get to next month, I'll be ok. " I am really tired of this schtick. I am ready to thrive. My little mastermind mentality has a few things in mind so, I just have to trust and believe in the process, and well... Do the things as if they're going to work. Because they are, and that's that.

My more generous side thought while doing the laundry in the ghetto-ass basement here, " Ah maybe I could put like an ironing board and a rechargeable iron down there (there's no outlets)." But unfortunately I can't trust people not to steal that shit. Yea, I am actually a pretty generous person in actuality but, people have taken advantage of me left and right, and I think the best policy is "If you scratch my back, I'll scratch yours."

Because, yea, you need to trust people to actually build more abundant things... But you shouldn't just trust everyone by default. Proof is always in the pudding so, I think if you just measure someone's actions and judge by that, it is a good indicator whether they might be trustworthy.

I guess I am writing right now because I am a bit flustered. I took a bit of a nap when I got home, but ended up sleeping too long so, I am going to have to hustle tonight. I hope that doesn't ruin me for tomorrow, but I just got to play it by ear.

Also I have been getting a lot of sores on my tongue. I don't know if that is stress or the salt intake going up ( probably both ). I even got a cold sore so I have been wearing my mask around town because its kinda embarrassing.

Also this is even more embarrassing, but also funny: I went to go get a hamburger at Wendy's for my meal or whatever. I knew I had a lot to do today so I sort of hurried up and finished my meal quickly and left without going to the bathroom before I left because, yea I planned on taking a nap, but I didn't want to take the long ass nap I did. Anyway, midway home I needed to take a shit and had to keep stopping and clenching my butt cheeks. Luckily I didn't shit myself on the way but it was like, I learned my lesson: whether you need to go or not, just go to the bathroom before leaving an establishment. Save yourself the pain.

What's worse is, you know when you exercise, your body loosens up and sends blood to your organs and everything, making it easier for you to go. So, each step was like sending signals to my body to go ahead and release the shit. I couldn't run home because it would've been horrible; if you're ever constipated and don't want to take laxatives, going on a walk/jog/run will help.